I haven’t posted something super thoughtful in a while.

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riverachelle:

At least not publicly. I keep it in my private blog, and his drafts, because who else needs to know? No one. The only one who needs to know is him. But there’s nothing wrong with other people knowing, I think.

You’re my ultimate best friend. I’m always scared to lose you still, no matter how many times you’ve tried to convince me I won’t. But it’s weird because I’m scared, and at the same time, I know that after every fight, every tear, and every silent phone conversation, I know that it’s always gonna get better. Sometimes I forget, though. But yeah. I just try to keep it in my head all the time that we’ll get through it. We’ve been through so much already, so there’s no stopping us now, right?

Right.

Thank you for always being there. For still being here, even when I make you mad or upset. I’m sorry I do that. I’m sorry I cry when I know you don’t like the sound of it. I’m sorry I do things without thinking. I’m sorry I cause arguments. I’m sorry for every wrong thing I’ve done. I’m sorry. But I know you know that all these things I’ve done wrong, were not meant to seem like I care any less, or that any of my feelings for you have gone away.

You actually build up my self esteem. No matter how many times I say I’m insecure, you’re like the only reason why my self esteem isn’t at 0. So thank you, for getting me to the point where I slightly believe you when you compliment me. Ha, justkidding.

I miss you. See you soon, though. Hopefully.

This girl right here ? She’s the Best Fucking Girlfriend Ever. Excuse my language. Everything she’s done for me. Ugh. She’s just amazing, really. We’re about to be together for 4 months in 2 days, on the 27th. I know that might not seem long, but we’ve been through so much. We’ve been through our own share of problems, but what relationship hasn’t ? I mean… that’s what makes a relationship stronger right ? Especially a long distance one ? You really need trust, honesty, and communication, and that’s exactly what me and her have. I love this girl with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. She’s stayed with me through all my bullshit and everything else. I’m in love with this girl, and I’m never going to leave her. In fact, I’ll make a promise in public, so everyone can see. My proof, my evidence. Baby, I promise you, that you will never, ever lose me. You’re not going to. I never thought about leaving you, and I’ll never want to. I could care less about other girls. I only want you. I need you. That’s ONE of my promises that I’ve made to her, and I definitely won’t break any of them. And as cliche as that sounds, it’s true. I need her. She keeps me in check, and she helps me stay sane. She makes me the happiest person alive. I’ve never been this happy before I met her. I’ve never met a girl like her before. I really can’t imagine life without her. I honestly want to marry her. “You guys are only 14, you don’t know what love is.” If you say that to me, fuck you. I’m sorry, but age doesn’t define love. You don’t know how I feel for her, so don’t tell me that. So yeah.. This is MY girlfriend, MY bestfriend, and MY everything. I love her sooooooo much, I trust her with everyyyyythiiiing, AND SHE’S MINE, so back the fuck off. Thank you. (:

AW. (x LOL. I wasn’t expecting this long of a reply. You’re so corny though…. LMAO. :3